I have been reading a lot about sensory and perceptual integration and functioning, how the brain self-regulates, adapts, communicates, functions, performs. I have been learning about how MY mind works by watching my son. It is the most honest mirror I know. I know what HE needs. It is easy to see, how he is when he does the best, why he breaks down and loses it, and when.
It is harder to see those needs in myself.
But sometimes I do. Recently it has occurred to me that I am in a hot air balloon. I am with The Sacred there. It is quiet and still and I have peace. It is also terrifying and high and life threatening every single second, but that is only the backdrop. The more important truth is what I can see. I can see everything. Where things begin and end. How life moves and functions. The destinations and the curves. I can see the brain in its entirety and I can see how it all works together. I love being in the hot air balloon.
I need more self regulation. I know where I start and where I stop. I can see myself.
From right here.
I need more stillness.
Because when I am still, I can hear the soft, lilting melody that pulses at me the truth of my life.
Christ in me, the hope of glory.
